hello fall

i update this it seems... seasonally. i always seem to comment on the amount of change, which may sound redundant but expected. my senior year is proving to be a lot less insane than last year, but i have my fair share of strange and unusual pressures and worries.

i think i'm just a naturally anxious person, but don't mistaken it for a naturally miserable person. ; -)

this season i've managed to finally shuffled my way into driver's training like a true blue late bloomer and weaseled on in getting accepted at madonna university. not bad, right? i have plenty of doubts concerning both, but things strangely always work out. i'm not sure how, but the cosmos align to my favor almost always. except in the presidential elections, but that wasn't my choice this time around. hopefully in the next four years t shirt sales won't sway voters!

this year i'm writing this years movie, dare to be amish, with the help of one of my more hilarious friends, international superstar, dom. i can sort of relax with this movie, although i am very involved in it, just as involved as last year. but i can be a little less paranoid and have some breathing room. plus, i don't have to spend hours in the morning on weekend shoots putting on pounds of makeup. overall, i'm extremely happy with the story and i find it very hilarious. i am also passionate about writing it, which is vital.

halloween this year was fantastic! the best halloween yet, i'd say, parts 1 & 2! halloween part one was spent at this year's *high school movie star* evan's haunted house. all the proceeds and awareness went toward ovarian cancer, which is something that hits pretty close to home. the following morning was the first shoot, so we all loaded up and traveled out to the middle of nowhere to a real life farm to begin shooting this amish blockbuster. we were surrounded by bounceboards and tripods and goats (trying to eat most of our equiptment). mind you, this was extremely early and we all looked less than fabulous. halloween part 2 involved beth's bonfire extravaganza, where i got to see some of my loves. overall, a very busy weekend last week but quite worth it. next weekend is madonna's open house, so i won't be able to make it to the second farm shoot. yet, i'm sure we'll be at that location, wherever it is, plenty.

i've always started the pre production stages of my documentary concerning the math disability called dyscalculia. it's a very intensely personal thing i seem to deal with each day, so im a little nervous to really get it going. but i'll start to feel a lot better once i finish it, knowing that it's helped me and others. plus, i can't have it be completely serious! i need to laugh at myself to keep sane.

the holidays are coming up (which is crazy to say because halloween wasn't even a week ago..) and i have to mentally prepare myself for all that insanity. i'll probably post some in-depth crapola about how 2008 has been the best year......ever. ;-)

as for words of wisdom, oberst never disappoints.

So now I try to keep up, I've been exchanging my currency.

While a million objects pass through my periphery.

Now I'm rubbing my eyes 'cause they're starting to bother me.

I've been staring too long at the screen.

But where was it when I first heard a sweet sound of humility?

It came to my ears in the goddamn loveliest melody.

How grateful I was then to be part of the mystery,to love and to be loved.

Let's just hope that is enough.